Happy New Year! Extreme Rant!

Yeah i think this is where i am going to make my new years resolution. Because after some long hard thinking over the last couple of weeks of break, i have decided i am going to start fading out some of the people that say they are friends but aren't true friends. The ones that make plans and dont follow through. The ones that i call up and say hey whatcha doing this coming up weekend, and i make attempt to do something and they blow me off. I am so tired of it. I play nice and cool when they blow me off, but they never say i'm sorry or say hey something came up they dont even fucking call.

Yeah i get that your married, or you got work, or you got kids, or you got a bad combination of the 3 or whatever the situtation may be. I can work around your schedule, i always have. I am a true loyal friend, wont talk shit behind your back, wont steal your man, wont steal from you, ill answer your phone call 3.am when your crying about something that happened. I listen to your whining about your man, or his ex. the dogs the kids, the ttc conversations. I listen to those that are having baby's basically rub it in my face. when i say politely can we change the subject. they just keep talking about the same shit they were talking about. Hell im not perfect, i am far from it, i know i am boring as hell and sometimes bossy. i try not to be. I know i put a damper on every party because im the chick with the oxygen, always wonder if somethings gonna happen. I know you dont like shopping with me because i walk slow or whatever. But i listen, and i hold you and i help you and im there for you. HOW BOUT FUCKING ASKING ABOUT ME FOR A CHANGE! Asking how i am doing, when you see me silently looking like i am about cry. Come put your arm around me and give me a slight hug. Seriously if i stopped for 1 minute being ME and acted like some of you treat me or your other friends. The world would be a cold and dark place..... So yea with the new year here and now. I am going to make time for those who matter most. Those who make time for me and my family. Yeah i have a family i got a sexy lil hubby and two tiny kitties ant much right now but they are mine. And they love me.